Somewhere in the city you're sleeping better than I ever will I've sent letters to you in delirious dreams longing to feel sensations you'd give I'll comb the streets hysterically to see you once Just to see you once You're a frequency I've never heard Talking in circles I'll never know how to deal with desire, this unrealistic ambition Thinking in circles I'll never know how to open my mouth and relate anything Keep my vinyl I'll keep your sentiment It's all I have of you There were stars in your eyes Can I show you how you can keep them there Searched every avenue, slept every subway car Where does it go from here? No more subtleties for misinterpreting We're planets in orbit away from each other Talking in circles I'll never know how to deal with desire, this unrealistic ambition Thinking in circles I'll never know how to open my mouth and relate anything

I'm floating softly often Hope I live to see a more truthful day before I lie alone in my coffin I'm coughing awfully often lately With a mind full of nerves and opinions Written by the people who hate me So I sit here and I contemplate I live most my life in my mind's shell Stoical serious mind state it's blind fate for my clientele There's an iron hell, eye it down Taking trains in and out the Ironbound Lie down and rest it's a quiet town Head always forgets what the eyes have found Still chasing the sky like a bird about to take flight Somethings appear right when they're just a sleight of hand Just an idle man worshiping an idol man Gotta wake up and cut the cord from the promised land Sipping holy water out of Satan's chalice Is it all a lie constructed by the palace? Or is Alice through the rabbit hole with no way back up? Placing bets on bad hands while the odds against us stack up Got a pox in my pocket and it feels like its magic Yeah these games entertain us but their outcomes are tragic Cause we wanna live lavish like American royalty and we wanna be heroes we're idealistic and spoiled Narcissistic and hopeless, feeding like packs of locust Feeling complacent cause of the lies that they told us and now we're losing our focus, slipping into the gluttony of a 21st century rich American rut and we spend all our time smelling the roses of a fully synthetic view of the world that it poses But there's an inkling of guilt that the system imposes That makes us fight every day for resources that it owes us And I felt that I feel it I've lived like a robot With no thoughts, emotionless. Is it permanent? I hope not I was told there'd be a haven, asylum but this ain't it So excuse me while a few friends and I get reacquainted And dedicate our lives to navigate the maze that they built for us Deliver the prize and proselytize for a lie that's built on trust That we'll go to sleep in a warm room with the lights out and our minds clear And drift off to a good place no fear, violence or crime there just stop

I'll never find what it means to be alive I've been meaning to tell you I've resigned from your spell And your need to control me and your company as well It's not that I'm bored I just need a new sell Familiar rush in my veins can't you tell? The sun's in my eyes, you're so hard to follow You're wasting your night thinking of tomorrow You can't really live in a race to survive I'll never find what it means to be alive I'll never find what it means to be alive

Every morning that its storming I question the sunrise And times got a strange way for the knots that she unties Like friendship and plans, perspective and sanity Don’t stand there confused cause you're not at all what you planned to be Just move on a new dawns on the sunrise already Facing all these issues we don’t learn from instead We just just sit here in silence with hopes for the future Mother earth's striking back for the ways that we’ve used her But we don’t stop cause we’re greedy so we take more at every turn We’re optimists with hubris and confidence so we never learn The future is dark the powder is loaded all we need is a spark The future’s a lark We’re slipping a little shy of the mark Let’s celebrate the past while a new days being reigned in its hard to grasp the scope of it on the fringe or when you’re chained in Shut your eyes and follow lifes beautiful or its hollow Hypnos or Apollo Yesterday through tomorrow If you could tell me what i need to hear some times Maybe i would walk your way Just tell me what i need to say Make this easy for the both of us I've seen the paranoid who look at life through prisms and young professionals who only speak in euphemisms Listen to me as society comes undone Mythical America the great is where I come from Where reality gets obfuscated Points of view turned upside down Magnified and oscillated Occupied and shifted Stolen lost and gifted Given to and forced upon Improvised and scripted Reality, a term to use loosely while I try to paint it on my looseleaf I was told, leave behind all distractions you treat As a means to avoid what you seek truthfully, you'll see When you think for yourself and you question the order That temper and patience are both running shorter Cause we feel like the past isn't reflecting the future Of an infrastructure built upon some fragile computers It's a fragile future A real fragile future

I didn’t mean to cross your mind but boundaries still feel undefined Do i still watch where i should step or should it be i disconnect Just make it clear what to expect Don’t think you're right cause you never learned Smoke forming a billow hovering in the air Figures form in the fog like ghosts suspended there Frozen Faulty choices were chosen Doors were closed and some were opened Open minds can not be closed in As consciousness is exploding Real life remastered in digital with metaphysical anguish involved While your id, superego and ego dissolve and leave you a puddle of impulse and bone Constantly seeking a puzzle to solve Conditioned like rats to deliver elixir direct to the center of pleasure While upping the dose at a consistent rate and continuing by any measure Searched for a reason Filling that void I try to appease them Now i just try to avoid Do you want to commit? Would you say you’d need it? Do you really feel it? Because you seem self-impeded Just throw down that crown Just discard your falseness Can you say you’re happy Still after all this Im jaded, im hapless and you were just practice You proved to be cunning repetitious and classless I’m thinking i know what I’m doing here but I’m still feeling the pressure Because you wear the face like you're in pain Have you ever felt lesser? I know its hard enough to realize that there could be a better way But there's a spot for you that grows inside with every moment that you stay